Lyrics

My Life’s Dirge
(Banshee)

(Written, produced, composed, performed, remixed and mastered by
Antoin Gibson, Circum-Sonus Ltd)

Once, like the flowing of time,
was I free and bountiful
Until Chaos emerged from Darkness
holding me accountable
That flow of time, sense
of purpose, I had,
Departed…
Weaved, Entangled, and Warped in ways
leaving Me unguarded…

Buried beneath the Sand of Time
run out in my Hourglass Prison
The grains of time and Threads of Fate
congealed while I was blind of vision
Over a decade gone,
a Mound of Dirt Entwined
with my matted Hair I’m laid to Rest.
I Lost to life’s Depression,
it is My Fault,
I am Ashamed that I failed at my best

I have lost everything,
everyone
and am already dead…
No one and nothing want anything to do
with me no matter how it’s said
Those ideologies and messages
to never give up hope
Clearly have never existed like me
because I just cannot cope…

Buried beneath the sand of time
run out in my Hourglass prison
The grains of time and threads of fate
congealed while I was blind of vision
Over a decade gone,
a mound of dirt entwined
with my matted hair I’m laid to rest
I lost to life’s depression,
it is my fault,
I am ashamed that I failed at my best

Those who say I shouldn’t be ashamed
or blame myself for things not my fault
Their words are as empty as I am,
the Vessel
for my inner truths relentless assault
The truths, no matter how I contest, are fact
When I check…
The only people who encourage me to live,
my life value lies in their pay cheque…

If redemption was possible
then how come I have landed here?
If I’m not to blame and shouldn’t give up,
Then why do all I have is fear?
I didn’t get a chance to live,
but Chaos lacks emotion,
That is all too clear.
All the time I lost and results of my failings
Are catching me.
My Death Draws so very Near…

I Lost...
It is My Fault...
I am Ashamed...
I Failed...